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the good the bad and the exhausting. - Innocent When You Dream

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I am exhausted. I have been extremely productive and have been keeping up with my work since the beginning of the semester, but it has come at a cost. I haven't had time for friends, I haven't been home. I have pretty much just gone to class, then the library, and stay there till closing time which is about 11:45. My brain is crammed full of studies of social theory and ethnography. See when you are studying English, or philosophy, no matter how intense you get into it, you know it stops at the text, but with anthropology, every word I read is happening somewhere. Ever sentence is someone's life. Every process I am reading about is happening as we speak making the rich rich, and the poor dead or dying. There is no separation, this is my world, it doesn't end when I put the book down. So school this semester has exhausted me physically, emotionally, and intellectually. Every week is more readings on oppression, genocide, structuralized racism, social theory, underclass struggles, etc. Don't get me wrong, there is a bright side of anthropology, for it always carries with it that glimmer of hope, that since this is your world, you can always change the ending. There is always that glimmer of possibility, and when you are as stubborn and arrogant as I am, you can convince yourself you can do it. You have to hold onto that hope to survive. Well at least I am engaged with what I am studying. Probably a little too engaged for my own good. It wouldn't be so bad, but it is just that right now I am completely surrounded by it doing three extremely intense seminars that seem to gravitate around similar themes. And on top of this I am also directing for the first time, so all in all, I am just really tired, and I apologize for being such a hermit. I just haven't had the energy for socialization.now there's irony for you. A guy so absorbed in learning about social processes that he doesn't have time to socialize. And this is still only the beginning of the semester. I don't know how much more social theory I can cram in here.

Anyway the only thing keeping me sane is occasional short visits to Jenny's place after class which is wonderfully close to MUN. She is doing her internship at holy cross elementary, so we are doing our best to keep each other in good spirits, or at least have someone to vent too. It is wonderful at the end of a particularly exhausting day to wander over to her place and just collapse in each others arms. I have also been reading the little prince when I get particularly emotionally exhausted from my readings. It always helps.

Today I bought my first pair of glasses. two in fact. One pair is pretty standard but has the sunglasses clip on, and the other is for when I want to look sexy geek chic :P
Anyway, you will see them soon, and if you don't then try to find a way to correct that.
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From:moustachios
Date:January 29th, 2008 04:59 pm (UTC)
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Ooooh!

Glasses are fun. What's your prescription like? Have you gotten used to them yet? Are you going to be wearing them all the time, or are they just for reading the blackboard?
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From:onelessthing
Date:January 29th, 2008 06:34 pm (UTC)
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I take it your eye troubles from before have boiled down to a need for glasses? That's a relief! :o) Hope to see you in them, soon.
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