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personality type Nov. 26th, 2007 @ 02:55 am
this one is kind of interesting, and some what scientific. anyway aparentley i am an INFP. anyway if you want to take the test go here .

it actualy explains quite a bit about me. some of it is actualy quite nifty.
anyway, time for sleep.

Nov. 21st, 2007 @ 03:38 pm
can somebody recomend some good free anti virus and anti spyware software?

wasting time with meme's Nov. 19th, 2007 @ 02:10 pm

Lets101 - Free Online Dating

i wouldn't exactley call myself promiscuous, or PATRIOTIC in bold letters, but the rest of it could be me. what do you think?

Nov. 18th, 2007 @ 04:39 pm
I had no idea that Claire from Heroes was the voice of Kairi in Kingdom Hearts. oh the things you learn waisitng time on imdb.

another paper down. Nov. 14th, 2007 @ 01:07 am
Wow....I feel great. For someone who has just spent 11 hours strait in the library, and been on campus since 9am, all on 3 hours sleep, I feel fantastic. I finished my paper. And on top of that, as I was nearing the end I was thinking to myself how nice the quiet of a snowfall would be, and as I exited the library, it started to snow. Just a little drizzle of it, but it's a start, and it was very comforting. After a long day. and finishing that paper has me feeling ten times better than i have been for the past couple of days.

So as I walked home in the snow, the song First Day of My Life popped into my head and I just started to smile. There is snow in the air, I have something finished, my work load is about to lighten up in a few days, and I am absolutely in love. Life is good. I am absolutely exhausted, but life is good. Now I just have to read Measure for Measure before I go to sleep.
Current Mood: contentcontent
Current Music: Bright Eyes - First Day Of My Life

the bean Nov. 9th, 2007 @ 01:22 am
I think I am going to have to give up coffee for a while. I think I have been taking in way to much caffeine lately and not only am I becoming dependant on it, I think my stomach is starting to hate me. so hm shall I go cold turkey, or just start cutting back until it is only a now and then thing. cause I still love the taste....mmmm, the smell, the smooth marbled swirls as you add sugar and cream, or the strait to the point kick of naked clarity of black coffee. that buzz, the sweet aroma. the romance of senses and focus. the way different coffees create different moods for different endeavors...........GAH!!!!!!! must remind myself of human rights abuse and the twisty feeling in my stomach and lack of sleep...bad coffee BAD COFFEE!
Current Mood: sicksick

Oct. 12th, 2007 @ 01:30 am
So I made a big scary life choice today.

I have decided that I am applying for the national theatre school’s design program in Montreal in the New Year. It has me excited and terrified at the same time. I think getting accepted would be just as scary as being rejected, but that in itself is a wonderful feeling.

It will mean living on my own for the first time, away from friends and family for 3 years, and in a new city with a different culture, half of which I will never really be a part of because I am an Anglophone. It will also be a very different type of education. Your application is completely non-academic. None of your grades are even looked at, it is all based on your interview, personality, experience, creativity, and vision. Which I think works out in my favor actually. The program is amazing, there is even courses on designing costumes for circus, and a good balance of design and practical, plus a curriculum that is specific to you, depending on your skills and aspirations.

There will also another rather personal strain, that I am not going to worry about until I half to, plus a blog really isn’t the right place to talk about it.

If I don’t get in I plan on working for a year, and doing local theatre, maybe even direct a show, and do lots of art, and get a comic published.

Hey Amanda! Oct. 10th, 2007 @ 12:38 am
I got your package today. I LOVE the Vivi plushie!! I have wanted one for years, thank you so much. And yep, the Spawn comic is a collection of the first couple of issues in Japanese. It is quite nifty. I will write a more detailed response to your letter in the next couple of days, but for now I have to get back to books. Just wanted to tell you I got it, and to say thank you very much. Talk to you soon! :D

My first comic. Oct. 6th, 2007 @ 10:06 pm
so, if anyone is interested, here is a copy of my first attempt at a comic.

it is a little pretentious, and obnoxiously post-modern, but I am still proud of it.
Anyway, hang out with me long enough and you will probably end up in a piece of my artwork :P

next issue: Sep. 25th, 2007 @ 11:16 pm
WOW! I am actually getting my first comic done! after all these years of pestering myself to do it, it is finally taking shape. I will post it when it is done, but it is very pretty so far. I am rather proud of myself and it is a drawing style I have never really played with before but have been experimenting with lately. using as little lines and light as possible to create a recognizable image. and my digital inking is coming along great. a little slow, but it is working. man a tablet would come in handy right about now.

also I am no longer broke! my loan came in today. there are a few things I need to by, and a few things I want to buy, and one or two things I want to do, but for the most part I am going to try to be a bit more careful with my spending. anyway. back to work.

I am very happy I get to combine the academic and creative parts of me for a change.

Helme. Sep. 20th, 2007 @ 12:07 am
i didn't get home til after midnight, but mom said you called? what about?

Sep. 11th, 2007 @ 03:59 pm
so i found a copy of Maus 1&2 at the A.C.hunter library. so that's an up, however i am a couple of days on very little sleep(none last night), and am having a bit of a Academic crisis. so over all i am feeling pretty shitty right now. and reading about the Holocaust when you are over tired and grumpy and frustrated isn't the best cheer up recipe.

Sep. 9th, 2007 @ 05:57 pm
does any body have a copy of Maus 1 and 2 i could borrow?

Aug. 29th, 2007 @ 08:49 pm
3 more sleeps

Aug. 28th, 2007 @ 01:03 am
5 more days :)

one happy Downey Aug. 26th, 2007 @ 04:00 pm
mom: wake up!

me: em wha?

mom: wake up where going to saltimbanco....

me: .........wha?

i think that was the fastest i ever got out of bed and dressed and out the door. no breakfast no shower, just out the door to see cirque du soliel...YAY!!!!!! i can't beleive i got to see it.

2 cirque shows in one summer...its been a good year :)
Current Mood: ecstaticecstatic

another Last chance to see Macbeth Aug. 18th, 2007 @ 05:35 pm
Closing night of Macbeth is called due to rain tonight. but there will be a pay what you can performance tomorow night same time and place (6pm bowring park ampetheatre weather permitting)

Aug. 16th, 2007 @ 10:13 pm
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Click here to take the "Which Super Villain are you?" quiz...

15 days, 15 nights. Aug. 16th, 2007 @ 06:15 pm
So Jenny is gone home to Nova Scotia for a couple of weeks. We spent most of yesterday together, and seeing as it was only a few more hours till we had to be at the airport, I spent the night too. So we get up at 5:30 in the mourning and all of a sudden I get really dizzy and nauseous. That has never happened before[1] and I was really embarrassed, here I am about to see my girlfriend who I am not going to see till September to the airport, and I am about to pass out. Anyway it must have been just the combination of fatigue and not enough to eat the previous day. Anyway all in all I had a wonderful day and night with this wonderful person and I saw her to the airport and kissed her see ya later at security. Hope to hear from her soon.

Anyway I am in good spirits, but be prepared that I might go through a spell of mopeyness over the next couple of weeks and will need some cheering up. But I have wonderful friends and the art marathon and Macbeth to look forward to. Plus I am going to catch up on some reading, talk to friends I am getting worried I am neglecting, and find ways to keep busy. Maybe get at some of those projects that are brewing in my head. Oh and do some knitting. I have started learning how to knit and rather enjoy it actually.

Anyway that's all for now.

[1] that sentence would be even more embarrassing in another context

...and im feelin good. Aug. 9th, 2007 @ 02:22 am
I have a Girlfriend....... :)

tis official now. we are using the G word. and after tomorow afternoon she is free from papers and exams :D
so many fun things ahead and we can just take our time and not have to worry about where we have to be or what we have to be doing. just injoy each others company with no stress amd deadlines. it will be wonderfull.

we speant yesterday afternoon adventuring. walking the trails and even a few strolls through some rivers. we almost ended up signal hill from quidi vidi village but had to cut it short so she could go home to study. it was quite a nice hike anyway though. we ended up as far as the geo center. then down the hill to downtown. it was nice to just spend the afternoon with her. she looked so beautifull in her white skirt gently moving in the breeze, a smile on her face, nothing but blueskys above and wonderfull company. taking in the view on our little hill. course the view i was takeing in was her...yes i know that was cheezy but i'm a bit smittin. can you tell?

anyway. wonderfull things ahead. including Jenny meeting some of my favorite people tomorow hopefully.

in other news i went bowling with my family today....it was weird but kinda fun. it was nice to see mom and dad have fun together. they are both better bowlers then medad especialy. he is actualy quite good, have to get him back into it. he bowled alot years ago. might be good to get him a hobey. so as for me......i lost to a blind woman and a 4 year old girl...i gotz the mad skillz...im not jokeing. started to get a little bit better near the end. but yeah it was actualy quite fun.

also went to cheryls going away party. got to say good bye, and i got to talk to simone wich I always look forward too. lots of hugs all around and much fireman carrying of people. strong like bull!

so after that i walked home. it started to rain but i actualy rather like walking in the rain. it was rather fitting to a philisohical breakthrough i had today. anyway i will wrtie about that another time. walking home in the rain always makes me feel like a film noir character. i even ran a little bit. thats another thing. i feel really good about my body right now. i am stronger and healthier then i have ever been, and it feels great. also not bad for the old vanity. admit it we are all a little vain. sometimes it feels good to look good, but you look good when you feel good, so it is all state of mind. i guess the word is comfortable.

anyway thats it for tonight. gona read some deathly hollows and go to bed.
Current Mood: giddygiddy
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» long time no write
I have a new toy. On a whim today I bought nunchucks. And a flute. But yeah nunchucks. I am actually not bad with them. My friend Dashi Malone has showed me a bunch of stuff with them. I may buy another one so I can be Michelangelo. I actually know a few combos and stuff. It is weird when I think of the random skills I have. But I love it. I love being able to pick up any object and finding ways to play. So yeah. I am slowly but surely becoming a ninja.....the first person to make a Chris Farley joke doesn't get a cookie.

Anyway I haven't written here in a while, so what is new with me? Well for starters things are going wonderfully with Jenny. It is so nice to be that comfortable with another person. It is hard to believe that just a month ago I was too shy to hold her hand.....Yeah we got over that ;). on our one month I surprised her after she got home from work with flowers. A single rose and a lily. I was going to give her the single rose to be all poetic and romantic, but then I thought "but her favorite flowers are lilies", and then I realized that the single rose was much happier with the Lilly than by itself....no...no metaphor there...non at all. So yeah. Things are wonderful. There are so many ways to kiss someone and I am enjoying finding them all.

The two Shakespeare by the Sea plays I am in are going fantastically. I have a Mohawk and a kilt and a sword, and I am not sure which I am enjoying more. We have had awesome crowds. And many standing ovations. Oh and I almost burnt my face of the other night. Silly mistake and I am ok. If not a bit humbled. But that's a good thing. Some times no matter how much training you have, you have to be reminded that fire is fire. But yeah I am ok, with hair and eyebrows and beard intact. Just a little singed but that is nothing new. Speaking of which the victoria park lantern festival went really well. Amazing crowed and it was a blast to do. I got applause as I went on stage. It seems like I am starting to get recognized which is pretty cool.

Said goodbye to a dear friend who I wont be seeing for at least a year if not more. I will miss you Amanda but you have no idea how happy I am for you. You are going to do and see Amazing things. Have a wonderful time in japan. And bring back lots of stories and be who you want to be.
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Comedy of errors is opening tonight!

starts at 6:00 and tickets are $15 general, $12 students and seniors, and $6 for kids from 6-12
the play runs sundays and mondays until august 13th. at the bowring park cabot 500 outdoor ampitheatre.

Macbeth opens July 20th
» Real men wear skirts.
I put on my Macbeth costume for the first time today. I Love it. The kilt looks awesome, as does the army jacket. I think I have to make myself a kilt, as I think I look pretty dam good in one. Anyway, come see Macbeth in about three weeks time to see me all punked out.

in the mean time i am going to rest tonight. it has been a long week and i have an early mourning. so i htink i need some down time.
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I am happy. i am happier tonight than i have been in a very long time.

it has been a very good day.

» Clothes
I made a nice little discovery today. For the first time in about 7 years, I can wear XXL and some XL shirts. I have been a 3X and sometimes 4X for a very long time. This means that I now have a lot more clothes that can fit me and there are a lot of things out there that can potentially fit me. My first wonderbolt shirt that never fit me now fits, and today I bought a XL shirt for the first time and it actually fits! XL is still rather snug, but I can wear it, it fits me like 2X used too. I have a few really nice shirts in my closet that never fit me before that I can wear now. So yay!

I think I need to get some new clothes. Most of my shirts and pants that I normally wear and some that where tight are swimming on me now. Plus I don't really have anything interesting in my wardrobe. I bought a cool second hand heavy duty jacket today, I think it is designed for steelworkers, it is pretty funky. And only 2XL! So yeah, I want to get some interesting clothes that actually fit right. i am a big guy. i will always be a big guy, but at least now i am a big guy in better shape. this feels good.
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anyone interested in seeing piriates tomorow some time?
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check out this weeks issue of The Muse. there is an article in it with me and it features some of my artwork.

edit, however they have the wrong name on my picture, wich was silly, the auther spealt it write, i had the name on the file i sent them, but aparently through the editing process it got changed to "Sow" instead of the correct "Show" you would think they would ask me instead of the arts and letters websight, where it is spealt wrong in one place.....dumbasses.
» Today
Today was neat too. I got interviewed for the muse about my art and the arts and letters competition, by my friend Shalanda. So we did it over coffee and then decided to head to the park for juggling and the whatnot, where I bumped into James and Angel, and Julie and Kira. it was quite fun and I braved my confidence and wore a tank top. It felt nice to be out in the warm rain with my exposed arms and shoulders. Felt fantastic actually. Also I randomly bought a Cane to play with at an orthopedic store across the street. I quite like it actually, and I am having a lot of fun with it. I have a few new tricks up my sleeve too.

Afterwards Shalanda gave me a ride home and I watched oceans 11. I forgot that I actually quite enjoy that movie. The moment at the end at the fountain is beautiful, and gets me every time. Plus heist movies are fun anyway. Anyway that has been my day so far. I think I am going to go watch oceans 12 on my computer and then go to bed.
» yesterday
Yesterday was fantastic. It started with a rather weird dream about being struck by lightning. It was a rather intense, and it fucked with my head quite a bit as when I woke up my senses where all weird and my brain was buzzing all day. It felt like I had like 10 cups of coffee.

Anyway, later on I popped online for a bit dying for some intelligent and involved conversation cause as I said my brain was buzzing, and just as I was about to leave to go out, the lovely ms Sara Inkpen came on, and after little discussion we decided to meet for delicious pizza at Gioboni Caboto's and then have coffee. It was absolutely wonderful. We always have fantastic conversations. The food was great and so was the company. Then we went for coffee, with still lots to talk about, and then just wandered around the misty but warm city for a while. Talking about everything else under the sun. boy did I need that. Seriously, my brain was almost literally buzzing, with ideas and focus, and I needed engaging conversation before I exploded, and the company of that beautiful lady is always welcome. Lets do it again some time. Night time walks with good friends is always one of my favorite things.

Last night I had another very strange dream. I dreamt I was on a very long walk home, and my bag was getting heavier and heavier, to the point where it was cracking my juggling rings, any way the walk was getting very long and suddenly I realized I had gone to far because it was suddenly 1937. And I was in the middle of this city, and I walked into a theater that cost a nickle, where I met Beth Fagan who also some how got transported back to the 1930s and she had become a nightclub singer. And everything was in black and white. So I went out side to see if I could find a cab home to my own time, but there was a strange man who was talking about future events, and I realized he was another time traveler, and he also seemed a little bit nuts, so I explained that I was from 2007, and he looked at me funny because time machines hadn't been invented at that time as he was from several thousand years in the future, and explained that I must be a wanderer. So at this point my bag was almost getting too heavy to lift, and then the dream kind of just faded out. I cant remember any more. But I think I am going to incorporate it into the graphic novel I am writing. Or make it a story in itself. Either way it has peeked my curiosity.

I wonder what tonight's dreams hold.
» new poem
String of Pearls
by Matthew Downey

What I wouldn't give to be your string of pearls.
To caress your neck.
To be absentmindedly played with between your gentle fingers.
To meet your lips in moments when no one is looking.
To rest peacefully as I fall between your perfect breasts.
To move with you as you walk through the room,
catching the eyes of ones like me, who only wish to be,

your string of pearls.
» "you know at first...i didn't think i was going to like him"
i have started watching Star Trek: Deep Space 9.....holy fan boys are whiney bitches, it is frigging awesome. although i can see why so many people hate it. cause the reason i love it is because it is the complete oppisite of everything that i dislike about star trek in general. in ds9, the characters get emotional, science just makes things worse, things are dirty, the characters are multidemensional and actualy question the "all knowing all just" federation. there is moral abiguety, a captain who gets his hands dirty, and sisco explaining the nature of linear existance to omnipotent beings useing baseball and the death of his wife made me happy and cry at the same time. so anyway. I am hooked. and Odo is awesome!
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Maaike, Helme.... i think it is that time of the year again, i think it is time to expand our geekery to its limits....I think it may be time for........... our semi anual Star Wars marithon. you guys interested? i am feeling particularly geeky, and we don't have to do it in one go, we can span it a couple of days if we so please. anyone else is welcome too, but i know it isn't for everybody.

oh....and no wussing out and skipping phantom menace...we are all in this together, we can make it through :P

there may even be chocolate covered coffee beans if i can find them.

so are you guys in for some long time ago in a galaxy far far away?
» My good news
So I haven't put anything on here about it yet because I was told to keep it quiet until the awards ceremony, but that doesn't matter anymore so.....


I was in the visual arts category. it was a piece of digital/mixed medium art I did originally for a Christmas gift for my friend Ariana. it is not a photo or a drawing or a painting, but a little bit of all of them. Anyway. I was rather proud of the way it came out so I edited a little bit and submitted it to the Newfoundland and Labrador arts and letters competition. and well... I won a thousand bucks! :)

anyway, here is the piece I submitted. it is called "wandering through the cold night the beast finds a tiny show" this is just a photo of the hanging piece the colors arn't quite as vibrant. if you want to see it in person, check out the exhibit at The Rooms in the 4th floor museum until June 17th.
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got my bike out again! oh, riding feels so good. great exercise too. i am going to try to go for a ride every day or so for the rest of the summer. use it is my main mode of transport. just have to remember to leave earlier for things. my legs will either love me or hate me by the end of summer.
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This is going to be an awesome week. so many excellent things coming up. First there is more combat training for Shakespeare, I am receiving an award for a piece of art, plans with a wonderful girl, first read-through of Macbeth, and after Saturday I won't be flat broke anymore. What more could a boy want? Swords, art, money, theatre, and a wonderful pretty girl to spend time with. Everything I want in life in the span of a few days. Better knock on wood.
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Your Score: S?ren Kierkegaard

You scored 33 realism, 44 rationalism, 27 materialism, and 55 atomism!

Your philosopher is S?ren Aabye Kierkegaard (May 5, 1813 - November 11,
1855), a 19th century Danish philosopher who is generally recognized as
the first existentialist philosopher. Much of his work deals with
religious problems such as the nature of faith, the institution of the
Christian church, and Christian ethics and theology. Kierkegaard is
best known for the concept of the 'leap of faith'.
You value true individuality. Becoming aware of your true self is your
true task and endeavor in life. It is an ethical imperative, necessary
to achieve true spirituality. To you, people who live simply in terms
of their pleasures - their immediate satisfaction of desires,
propensities, or distractions - simply glide through life without
direction or purpose. To have a direction, we must have a purpose that
defines for us the meaning of our lives.

Link: The Philosophy Test written by Datamouse on OkCupid Free Online Dating, home of the The Dating Persona Test

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I'm home! i will make a long post about my trip later on the week, but i am a bit too tired to do it now.
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I got 3 Roles With Shakespear by the sea, and i am also going to be trained in stage combat!!!

the part i am playing in macbeth is Caithness. and the two i got in comedy of errors are Officer and one of the Townsfolk.

this is so awesome. i have quite the summer ahead of me.
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so i am in montreal, i just got back from the 3 day juggling convention. so fun. learned so much. i will write more when i get home.
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so i have 16 hours of airports and planes ahead of me because of this canceled flight before i get to montreal....:( i am getting tired just thinking about it, and i am missing most of mellisas birthday :( but hey it will be an adventure :) i get to be in 4 different provinces in one day :) and i will get to hang out with Ariana, and possibly Jaime the wonderfull geekey beautifull belly dancing anthropoligist. so both of thoses people are definitley a plus to this journey. but man...thats a really long time:( . i think i will go take a nap.
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